I've been thinking alot lately about the importance of language. Once I
arrived in BsAs, I realized very quickly how much in our day to day
lives we take the ability to communicate for granted. Of course you can
get by living in another country that you don't speak the language. But get by
are the key words here. In most cases, anything deeper than that is
impossible. And even just getting by many times is nerve wracking.
Routine things become stressful. Average errands or things that you need
to purchase become looming, ominous.
But for me the most difficult part about not speaking the language
is the constraints it puts on my ability to have rich and deep
interactions with people. Language is the primary tool in which we use
to communicate who we are. Our likes, dislikes, passions, opinions,
sense of humor, intelligence.... all of these things are nearly
impossible to communicate without a common language. Of course... I know
that so much can be communicated without language...
and when that happens it's a beautiful thing. But for me personally, I
have found that without language and conversation, I feel....stifled,
alone, frustrated.
Don't get me wrong.... I have come across folks that speak English
to varying degrees. I am not completely starved of intimate
conversation. I guess I've just gained a new and different perspective
on language. And you would think that this would all be motivation for
me to put my nose to the grindstone and try to learn Spanish as quickly
as possible. But in fact, this has not been the case. I'm not sure what
is blocking me... but so far I've shied away from Spanish instead of
diving into it as I had planned and hoped.There is obviously some fear
there and/or something else that's keeping me from pursuing my dream of
becoming bilingual. Perhaps it's as simple as my desire to learn isn't as great as I
originally thought? But something tells me that's not it. In any case, I
am doing a fair amount of soul searching as of late... trying to figure
out what's going on with me.
-tpd
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